Gratitude might seem hard to come by when you are 35 with a young baby and triple negative metastatic breast cancer but Jules Domigan believes it is the one thing the disease has given her.
‘I’m grateful for the joy, kindness and pure humanity that has been shown to us every day. You can’t do anything tough by yourself, you need support,’ Jules says.
Eighteen months ago it was easy to look at Jules and think she had it all. At age 33 she had five degrees, her dream job, was newly married and pregnant with her first child. In the space of five weeks her mother was diagnosed with gastric cancer, and a cyst in Jules’s breast that appeared nothing more than a little annoying was discovered to be one of the most aggressive forms of breast cancer. In a further cruel twist it had already spread to other parts of her body.
Jules admits she never imagined her world could change so quickly. ‘I had a false sense of control over my life. I never thought anyone could get breast cancer so young. My outlook, my perspective, everything changed.’
The joy and hope of pending motherhood suddenly became a juggling act of treating her breast cancer while minimising the risk to her unborn child. Jules remembers the irony of being able to have chemotherapy but not a glass of wine.
During this time she was part of a group of women from around Australia who participated in BCNA’s first Young Women’s Round Table in 2018, which was suppored by BCNA partner Sussan. ‘I didn’t know anyone in their 30s who had cancer – to meet other young women under 40 going through the same thing showed me that I wasn’t alone. We face so many different issues to older women, like fertility.’
It was through that meeting that Jules sought help from BCNA to access childcare and her superannuation. ‘BCNA is like a best friend who is really well informed.’
Feeling grateful doesn’t always ease the weight of her mother dying just five weeks after Rory’s birth, and Jules’s bright eyes dull a little when she talks about the reality that she is unlikely to see her own little girl grow up. ‘When you have a child you want to think of their future. I have to accept that another woman may get the title of “Mummy”’.
Despite the likely outcome, the new mum is giving everything she has to fighting for more time, and is trying immunotherapy as well as chemotherapy. Other coping mechanisms include a good dose of humour and her husband Joel. ‘He is my calm and strength and finds a way to make the scary parts funny. Cancer is serious, but I’m not!’ she says. The young couple is planning a trip to the Northern Lights, the Aurora Borealis, the namesake of their daughter.
Jules is also taking part in this year’s Bakers Delight Pink Bun campaign, BCNA’s largest annual fundraiser. Many have asked her why she has chosen to get involved when time is so precious. Her answer? ‘I am not the person I was before breast cancer; I’ve had to grieve for that person, but I believe in participating in change. I want my child to know that even when things get hard there is always something you can do, you have to step up.’
And it’s clear that the path Jules is now on, while not one of her choosing, will have a strong and lasting imprint.
‘Gratitude helps me put one foot in front of the other. This experience has taught me that the only thing I can control is who I love.’